Talk about spinning?
OUR World spun into a blur..
The foggy gaussian motion turned scattered and obscure..
So did all my visions I had in the beginning.
And flying turned to falling,
I started losing.. and lost winning.
I started my adventures with ones I hold close.. My friends, my loves..
Here comes the tornado.
You wanted to spin. Its fun, it is..
Methandfriendsofmine, Cocaine, Ecstasy, and Thizz.
Thizz wore out quick, it started making me sick.
Ecstasy, Molly.. that girls hard to find! But when I find her she takes me for a ride..
Cocaine's just SO LAME! and not worth my time. The money wasted over a teasy high.
Crystal, and Rachael came more hand in hand. But Crystal's a chem and Rae is human.
I kept going to and from Chrissy and Rae, At first Rae had me throw Crystal away.
But then Rae fled after all those words she said. Our Love was the drug, I swore, that could leave me dead.
After She left, Crystal was my shoulder to cry on.
Until Rae came back.. just to leave again.
Meth and I grew closer, But after Rae's fling was over.. It was days before she was on her knees at my door.
Quitting became harder, cause Rae seemed to hurt more. Scared all the time what we share would go.... out of order.
So I tried my hardest and made Income for her and I. I got us to the bay area! living, working, full time.
And for a second I thought everything would be fine... Until I lost my job, and she found a guy.
Out of nowhere, So unexpected.. Maybe Crystal isn't such a bad method.
I can rely on the way it works, DEAVASTATING LOWS, and crazy fun perks.
It made me not need her, cause I found myself. The confidence I lost in the midst of Rae's hell.
I did a Hippie flip and turned Hell upside down.. Except I was SATAN, and hell was my town.
Living to die, having fun the whole time!!! Not wasting my life just living my Loves lie.
Caring less about the words we shared, Rae and I..
The way we smirked, cause we are so cute when we fight..
The way I was the candle.. and she was the flickering light... dancing on my wick to light up our dark nights.
and all the dark rooms we wandered in to, I depended on her to get me through..
I like Meth Rae, but only without you. If your here there's a family I'm going to tend to.
a little boy for me, and a little girl for you.
I feel like you killed the first child.. Stupid fool!
I came shortly after and murdered one too, didn't even notice him.. What a retarded thing to do.
your back in my life now, and I have to let you know..
This last time you hurt me, I DID let you go.
I got so close to Crystal, and I don't know what to do..
this bitch will fucking haunt me no matter who I choose.
I want a life with you.. but we're fucking up..
I know we are strong, but it's like we refuse to look up.
I feel like we can't stop falling down.. mistakes in insanity,
the queen and king have lost their crowns, and instead a feeling of empathy
Is weighing tons upon our heads..
reviving what was dead..
Attempting to forget what was said.
Don't give up Stupid, and prove me wrong..
that you weren't fucking me off all this time.. all along.
I love you my drug.. my poison.. forever..
I love you my Angel.. my Wife.. my other...
And all my friends are scattered, like a startled chickens feathers!
we lost alot of things we once shared with each other..
experimenting habits that tickle our triggers,
every one of us has become different, and forgetting to remember...
Loosing ourselves, to one thing or another..
or coming up and out, healthier than ever!
Either way its not over.. Sure the curtains are closing, and have never been closer.
Living in the moment is to believe it is, was it is...
this Isn't over, though it will stop, we can keep the changing, changes.
Do we neglect to remember what the problems really were?
Because for me the problems became what we thought was the cure...
-Jean (the bean in the burrito full of rice.)
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